Actually, I'm just flat-out fucking pissed off.
The trip that I'm supposed to make THURSDAY does not seem to be happening, for a couple reasons.
1, someone made a promise to someone else and broke it, then blames that someone else.
2, I stupidly assumed it would work without any effort on my part.
3, PayPal sucks ass.
I renewed my internet on the 1st, like always. That's -50$ from my PayPal account.
I still have 45$ left.
It takes 3-5 days to send money from my PayPal to my Rushcard. Greyhound only accepts credit/debit cards, NOT PayPal.
"The world's most loved way to pay and get paid" my fucking ass.
If I'd transferred the money BEFORE the 1st - since I had it - and had not just paid for my internet... I'd not be in this situation. Hindsight, how I fucking hate it.
If I transfer the remaining 45$, not only is it not enough by 13$, but it wouldn't get posted until long after Thursday's come and gone.
Now, money bullshit aside: What does this trip mean?
Everything. Absolutely fuckin' everything.
I'd be visiting a place with a lot more job opportunities. The place I'm at now is DEAD for jobs. All the College fuckers get it.
I'd be getting out of the homeless shelter. All those who hate paying taxes just to have people use it for shit like this, rejoice. I'd be one less drain on your wallet.
And aside from that... I could be happy, for once, though no one ever really cares about someone else's happiness.
... What I really need is someone who has 58$ in their bank account/credit/debt/wtfever who wants instant-PayPal funds... and will let me pay back the 13$ when I return. By art or by numbers.
TL;DR: Fuck my life.